Crisis Averted

I wanted to walk today, but it has been raining hard this morning and the moment the rain took a break, I headed to the shops to get the necessary foods for the next few days.

I was quite nervous and feeling vulnerable as I walked down the food aisles.  I was annoyingly hungry too because it was my binge time (8-10 am).  I try to avoid this time period to shop for food because I have a history of giving in to buying binge foods.  I grabbed the carrots, heavy cream, plain yogurt, and was delighted to find the duck pate on sale.  I also found a treat for the evening my husband goes to his Christmas party at work.  A bag of in-the-shell monkey nuts.  I plan on roasting them and having wine for my party.

I then went to check the sale shelves and as I was attempting to look at the items, a store clerk decided to jump in front of me and re-arrange the shelves!  I stood back, thinking it was something quick she needed to do, but no, each time I moved forward to look at an item, she push in front of me to move an item.  Mind you, she was not stocking the shelf, she was just moving things around.  I became frustrated as she took no notice that a customer was interested in purchasing goods, so I did something I so rarely do in public, I got mad.  I said out loud, I guess it’s best I will come back when you are done, and walked away.  She ran after me asking me what I meant.  I told her that I thought it was rude to prevent a customer from accessing the shelves in a shop.  She said sorry and that she would come back later.  I felt a bit shaken from being outspoken like that and that in itself would have been a definite trigger to grab biscuits or something more but I took a deep breath and looked at shampoos until I felt composed enough to go and pay for my items.

I am not a fragile sort of person, in fact it bothered me that I got disproportionately angry at a clueless person.  I was more worried that I would allow the incident be bigger than it was and let it be an excuse to binge over it.  Eating food, I remind myself has no connection to people’s behaviour, nor my reaction to it.  Eating food is for nourishing my body and if I can wrap my head around it, it is also for pleasing me in a healthy way.

The next shop I need eggs, brussel sprouts and something for my lunches.  I forgot which meat I wanted to get for dinner tomorrow, and grabbed chicken breasts and after getting home, I realised it was minced beef I wants for cottage pie.  Grrr.  That means going to the shop and going through this all over again tomorrow.  I decided on sausages for my future lunches and I grabbed an extra rashers.  This was all good, my eyes only occasionally glanced over the binge foods. I was trying not to make too much eye contact and that helped.  I made it out alive and with only the items I needed and the chicken error.

Although I was loaded down with the bags of food, I could not resist stopping into the charity shop and bought my first UK Christmas decoration!  It was a golden pine cone candle holder and a candle stick that has the days to Christmas on the side.  £1 made me smile, it is so pretty and will go nicely on the table for dinner time.  I also saw that they had small Christmas trees for £3-5 and I wanted to get one, but thought I would see what was available at the other shops first.  So it appears that we can have a tree after all, even if it is very small.

I made it through the crisis time, it is soon time for lunch and a pot of tea and see what is going on my favourite soaps.


Spicy Day

2012-11-05 028 Into Glasgow we went yesterday.  I had an appointment about my national insurance and while there, we found a new source for spices.  It was what seemed to be a mostly African import foods shop.  They had a whole shelf full of large containers of spices in different mixtures.  I decided to start with a simple basic mixture type and the one I have used for many years, but have not found in the last 10 years or so…Vegeta.  One of my all time favourite seasonings.  This lot came to £10, which is far cheaper than the £3 we pay for a 65g lamb spice jar at Sainsbury.  I now know a number 23 or 26 bus will take me from my door to the shop.  Perfect.


Husband at first wanted to stop to pick up fish and chips for dinner, as he was in a celebratory mood, but as we had plenty of time to get home and prepare dinner, the idea was dropped much to my relief.  Being the day I was determined not to swim in the sea of carbs, it was one less situation to deal with.  We managed to look at all the candies and teacakes at the Pound Store to get ideas of what to send the grandchildren for Christmas without buying anything for ourselves.  Even though the day held anxieties over the appointment, it ended well.  I made cumberland sausages and savoy cabbage for dinner and the only extra bit was a single small Bailey’s chocolate drop with evening coffee.  I was so pleased that a day that was about to head in the wrong direction was smoothed out nicely.  I ate three porringers of low carb foods and was happy.

2012-11-05 009 I took a few other photo’s while in Glasgow, I liked the ship on top of this cupola. 

2012-11-05 010 I was actually more interested in the swans, but they are hardly visible.  This is the River Clyde.  We live next to it too.

2012-11-05 012 Even with a zoom I was unable to capture the swans. 

2012-11-05 014This was fun…the Ladies Waiting Room.  See the building in the back? 

2012-11-05 016 There was a lion and unicorn!  I immediately remembered my favourite book’s version, from Alice in Wonderland/Through the Lookinglass:



`The Lion and the Unicorn were fighting for the crown:
The Lion beat the Unicorn all round the town.
Some gave them white bread, some gave them brown;
Some gave them plum-cake and drummed them out of town.’


The day passed fine and I felt I was sitting in a good place about eating, I watched a few YouTube video’s on disordered eating and several light-bulbs went off in my head, a few more dots were connected and I will be writing about it in my next post.