Sigh, THANK YOU for saying it out loud. Dr Eenfeldt.
I noticed the comments defending counting. We always defend our eating disorder, for without it, we are lost. I cracked a big wry smile seeing the trend for Paleoist’s to be counting calories. I was very into Paleo before it became commercial. You don’t need a book or a plan or a list to eat paleo. Ray Audette had it right the first time, you don’t have to cook food to eat it, but if it is not edible raw, it’s not supposed to be eaten to begin with. How simple is that?
I made the decision to stop blogging about my ED and my binges and my personal life frustrations and let go of it all in favour of the positive influence of eating from a bowl. I am moving blog once more to attempt to stay on the path I once strived for and keep getting side tracked from. I am finding myself stuck here in and endless cycle and clinging to the ED persona too much for any chance of allowing my sense of wellbeing to develop.
Find me here, if you are still interested in the bowl project and eating from it. I plan on making it a more pleasant haven than this rant and raving blog has been. I promise, no more diet/eating/bowl blogs after this one, if I can’t make a go of it, I will quit altogether.
I loved this…..it came from here: http://tooft.blogspot.co.uk/2012/06/she-let-go.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed:+crush-book+(%22Crush-Book%22)
She let go.
Without a thought or a word, she let go.
She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go. She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a book on how to let go… She didn’t search the scriptures. She just let go.
She let go of all of the memories that held her back. She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward. She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right. She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it. She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper. She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go.
She didn’t analyse whether she should let go. She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter. She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment. She didn’t call the prayer line. She didn’t utter one word. She just let go.
No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad. It was what it was, and it is just that.In the space of letting go, she let it all be.
A small smile came over her face. A light breeze blew through her. And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.